Enlightened

Enlighted? Really? After 3 weeks without me he's En-Light-Ened?
I know I'm good.. but damn!
I'll tell ya the struggles I went through to get through to this man was exhausting.
There were nights we would go to bed and he would lay there motionless watching tv. I would try to get close and touch him and he would shimmy away from me. No hugs, no kisses, no affection unless I initiated and only then it was the friendly kind.
He told me after I left him that he had been sexually abused as a child and he never told anyone. That he is a sex addict now. He was getting so close to me he didn't want me to know so he would shun me. And now, since he was caught... he realized he should have loved me differently.
I say. Prove it.

He's going to therapy. He's researching Buddhism and says he is very interested.

Well I say.. keep proving it. People don't change that quickly. I'll be in my cozy new apartment on a 70 acre horse ranch enjoying my new lifestyle. I'm not looking for anyone cause I'm sick of all the bullshit out there. I promised myself 365 days of being single, and I'm sticking too it. If he wants to show me what he's got and show me that he means it... bring it.

Time will tell.