The Game

I didn't want to play it. In fact I didn't want to get to the point were shit got complicated and I had to think about not calling my boyfriend because he doesn't respect my time.

He apologized on the phone last night saying he was really sick and couldn't talk. I'm not really getting that vibe since he had the energy to play on Facebook yesterday. I'm angry and he has been told I'm angry. If he doesn't 'get it' then he's not in tune with me. The reality is this (thanks Buddha) I'm happy where I am. I'm happy to go to work every day. I'm looking forward to MY future and I have a plan. I'm not including anyone in particular in it. If he so happens to still be in my life as my plan unfolds then he must've done something right cause I'm not wondering around like a lost puppy waiting for him to get his priorities straight. Been there, done that.
Humphh.. can you tell the courting has curtailed? We get a long so well. He's the only man that I actually open up and talk to without feeling a knot in my stomach. He's successful at work. Enjoys nature and cars and road trips like I do. Loves to drive barefoot even! We have a lot of stuff in common. But the deal breaker still stands and I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

This is my time dear boyfriend and you will NOT take it for granted. I'm angry at myself for even bringing someone this close to me and allowing them to do this. I know I can't push everyone out, but I also know I am vulnerable to go back to my old ways of being passive. And so now, it's GAME ON. Hard to Get has Officially begun.... grumble.