Vampire

This week has been relatively calm, other than tension at work that is. The other admin had adopted a very nasty attitude and I actually found myself trying very hard to be nice when I spoke to her. It was all I could do to be civil when there is that much tension between coworkers. But she must've gotten off her rag because she's alot more civil today. I really don't understand why she would choose to be outright mean. I know I'm not all roses and sunshine all the time but at least I don't go out of my way to pick fights and be an asshole when spoken to.
But whatever, she's really been making an ass out of herself so I'll just let her continue to screw herself. Doesn't really matter in the long run. I hope to be out of here soon. I don't think I'm quite ready to jump ship right now, so I'll just hang on and keep pocketing the money or until they decide to throw me out. Either way, I'll get my way.
I'm back on my meds at a regular pace and I can really tell that I'm back in zombie mode.
I kinda miss feeling wild and free and passionate when I was off of them but I don't miss the overload of depression and reality. Blinders are ok I suppose.... for now. Maybe once I get reach my goal of my Modeling business supporting me, I'll take some time and get off my meds for a while and see if I even out. That would be cool.
Anyway, gonna get nekkid for money tonight. weeee.