Saturday, March 27 9:48 a.m. - Waiting for breakfast after a walk to Starbucks and the cove with Tamara.

Tamara came in quietly, bursting with soft warm energy after her group sunrise meditation at the cove. I have skipped every morning meditation and yoga so far. Maybe I will go tomorrow or Monday depending on where they hold it. Temple or cove.Tamara quickly began writing in her laptop after she declared she was skipping yoga for a walk on the beach with me. I got up and left the room to brush my teeth and when I got back she said the leader of the meditation said this and she wanted to share with me.

“Spiritual evolution is achieved through helping others, those who are poor and in need. Daily discipline of regular meditations, deep studies, pranayama (breathing exercises), light eating, and helping others will lead to spiritual growth, peace and content. Through helping others you learn compassion and sympathy. Spend more time in solitude and avoid futile talk with others, learn from self analysis and introspection.”
This morning I had a dream that Jim Sinegal came to see me and after I told him I had lost my modeling business due to lack of funds he told me to go part time and go back to school. I told Tamara this on our walk. And explained that I didn’t know what I would study. After writing her note down here; I am getting a gentle push (not so gentle) to take on and learn something so I can teach others. Therapist maybe?




----After Breakfast on my porch---



There are a few workshops I look forward to attending. One is held by a musician. I have no idea what I will be learning but I think I should go. The man has been here for most of the week and we keep bumping into one another. Both Tamara and I say we are drawn to him. I am drawn to him and repelled by him all at once. He is over 6 feet tall with a long beard and hair gray and black streaked. He says he’s from Iran. When he speaks to you it is gentle and piercing. I can’t explain the attraction/ aversion. I’ll probably be able to identify after this class. It might just be that he has something to teach me. The repel is probably that he is a man. And I have a profound distrust for them.

I bought myself a beautiful turquoise blue sun hat while at the resort today! I love it! I find myself surrounded by blue.
I feel very bad that while I was trying to take a picture of Tamara sitting on a rock by the ocean a wave came up and drowned her cell phone! She's forgiven me but it's still upsetting. I'm glad she still has her laptop to communicate with her fam-i-ly (as she pronounces it). I hear her voice in my head.
Oh the second workshop is "recovering from addiction" I've been looking forward to this all week.

I used my whole memory card for my camera and now I'm resorting to my phone to take pictures and video.
Another beautiful day on Paradise Island. The warm moist air sticks to my skin, the waves never stop crashing and the breeze ceases to blow. It sprinkled a little rain already. I was expecting a mostly rainy day. There is still time.