I haven't updated in a while because I wasn't exactly sure where I was... mentally speaking.

It's been a slightly scattered week. Nothing of great note to speak of aside from calling in sick the last two days because this sinus issue finally got the better of me. I've been coughing and congested for the past three weeks and finally Sunday I had a fever and my throat started hurting a lot. The Dr. decided I had a sinus infection and sent me on my way with a prescription for antibiotics and here I am at my desk two days later...still coughing and congested but my throat doesn't hurt any more.

I am better mentally, I've been consistent with my meds (except for this past dose) and I think that being consistent cancels out that zombie feeling I've been living with. I have not been very motivated to do much else but work even though I really do have a lot to get done, like put away my clean laundry and wash my dance outfits. I've been doing just enough to eek by but not enough to actually progress. I hope that once I get over this sinus infection I will actually have the motivation to clean and make some progress at home.

Last night I helped hubby with the taxes. This was his first time doing them and he was apprehensive about the whole thing. I really wanted him to do them so he could actually know what was going on. I would love for him to start taking care of those things. I trust him more than I trust myself with things like that. I know he's very smart, I want him to start using all that knowledge to benefit him instead of using it to rattle off useless facts at parties.

Coming up on my 33rd birthday is like seeing a Unicorn... I just don't believe it. How in the hell did this happen? I did want to say that I feel like I'm just now learning to have fun but that's not true. I've been having fun all along and doing a lot of things that I want to do. Today I feel like there is nothing I can't do so long as I put my mind to it. I just have to remember that some things I actually have to wait to get and some things probably won't be so great once I get to them.

I still have my job at the club. After I asked what was going to happen he said that the meeting he was supposed to have got put off and that he'll see me on Friday. So I worked this past weekend without any problems and here I am on Wednesday anxiously waiting on the text that will tell me if I still have a job or not. I wonder if I just leave it alone if this will blow over or if I keep bothering him he will be forced to make a decision. I choose to leave it alone.

Hubby and I are getting along very well. It's so good to have him fully alert and capable of having a conversation at any given moment. I think our communication has been a lot better and I really like that. He told me yesterday that he already ordered my birthday presents. What a huge difference from Christmas to now. I have really been cherishing our time together and I hope he likes it too.

Just to note: I had hubby come to the club at closing time on Saturday to pick up his two drunk friends. I was under the understanding that I was going to take 1 home but turned out that he had a friend that needed a ride also. I decided I couldn't handle two drunk guys so I called hubby for back-up. When all was said and done, his friend ended up in jail for drunk in public after he jumped the fence in our back yard. We have decided that if we were ever going to help this guy out again it was going to include duct tape. Specially since the last time we helped him he was so drunk that he told me he was just going to step outside to smoke then got in his car and totalled it trying to drive home. Lesson here... You can't even take the guys keys away! He's going to bolt!