Good things about today:
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I’m breathing.
I feel good
McDonalds has good cheap coffee
We had a new DJ on Saturday night and he was incredible! It was like going to a really great dance club! I danced so much I broke a pair of shoes. The very first pair of stripper shoes I ever bought. How sad.
I’m feeling a whole lot more like myself here lately. I haven’t felt like this in over a year.
I realized this when I had a few girls at the club brag about how I made their days a bit brighter when I gave them some advice or encouragement. Yeah me!
I haven’t had the capacity to actually help anyone with their problems. I’ve had to focus on me. I never have set out to cure someone’s problems, they always come to me and we work them out together. I guess we were all put on this world for a reason. And while I’m writing this I’ve realized that I’ve always been the one that people seek advice or opinions from. I don’t know why anyone would, it’s not like I’m the most upstanding, sane citizen. I always give that disclaimer when approached for the first time. So it ain’t my fault if they take my advice.
I’m still struggling to keep my motivation focused in the right direction but I’m still in the same spot. I’m still dancing even though I swore I’d quit. I’m still unable to focus on maintaining my house and all that comes with it. I’m still struggling to focus on work instead of surfing the internet. I can blame it on exhaustion but I know from experience that when I’m not exhausted I have more energy to focus on fucking off. I am however still driven to pay off my bills and go back to school. I’ve got a taste of doing something I like and it is really sweet. It only makes my real job more bitter and my weekend job more necessary.
Enjoy your day ya’ll, I’m going to walk through it with blinders on. Wake me when it’s over.
…
I’m breathing.
I feel good
McDonalds has good cheap coffee
We had a new DJ on Saturday night and he was incredible! It was like going to a really great dance club! I danced so much I broke a pair of shoes. The very first pair of stripper shoes I ever bought. How sad.
I’m feeling a whole lot more like myself here lately. I haven’t felt like this in over a year.
I realized this when I had a few girls at the club brag about how I made their days a bit brighter when I gave them some advice or encouragement. Yeah me!
I haven’t had the capacity to actually help anyone with their problems. I’ve had to focus on me. I never have set out to cure someone’s problems, they always come to me and we work them out together. I guess we were all put on this world for a reason. And while I’m writing this I’ve realized that I’ve always been the one that people seek advice or opinions from. I don’t know why anyone would, it’s not like I’m the most upstanding, sane citizen. I always give that disclaimer when approached for the first time. So it ain’t my fault if they take my advice.
I’m still struggling to keep my motivation focused in the right direction but I’m still in the same spot. I’m still dancing even though I swore I’d quit. I’m still unable to focus on maintaining my house and all that comes with it. I’m still struggling to focus on work instead of surfing the internet. I can blame it on exhaustion but I know from experience that when I’m not exhausted I have more energy to focus on fucking off. I am however still driven to pay off my bills and go back to school. I’ve got a taste of doing something I like and it is really sweet. It only makes my real job more bitter and my weekend job more necessary.
Enjoy your day ya’ll, I’m going to walk through it with blinders on. Wake me when it’s over.
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